Let’s make this like college!!! Let us pretend the first 8.2 years was 2 weeks before the exams and now it’s the night before and time to cram for the exam!!! Ironically I was never as stupid in school as in life. I’m moving the goal post because I do not want to off myself for lack of motivation, because I lack the mo…tif..vat…….ion to do so; I’m moving the goal post at the 11th hour:

There now I have something to blog about, yay¹

An expresion of joy or Yet another yogurt. Pacman wrapper and AUR helper written in go. Though I use the latter every day; I meant the former in this case. Yep! I’m a nerd! ↩︎

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Tuesday, August 30, 2022

How can an intelligent human being not figure out how to?:

Get out of debt
Get a job
Have energy
Have hope
Have the desire to even go on

Asking for a friend

O’ hell! OK, no BS I guess. Not asking for a friend, how does a hard working not so intelligent individual figure the same things out? Proven personal fact. Take someone who used to take charge, feel intelligent, be a leader, take chances, trust humans, have hope in humanity and have a realistic hopeful attitude in life. Then beat that person down, reject all job interviews, hell even have a career/life coach blow them off, have co-workers remind them how bad they are, have bosses remind them how inadequate they are, have everyone tell them they are not trusted (even tough they are honest to a fault and have never lied or betrayed anyone) and guess what. That person honestly starts feeling like they are bad, they are inadequate, they are untrustworthy and they will forever be unemployed and unable to contribute to society.

Once someone reaches that point in their life, in their later years in life. How does one move on from that? I don’t want to feel sorry for myself (but at times I do), I don’t want to give up hope (but I have), I don’t want to feel negative about myself (but I feel I’ve become a whiney little bitch).

Maybe the secret is to speak with convicts who have served time and put their lives back together. Maybe that is where I need to research and learn. I have and am currently serving an eight year stint in oblivion, AKA failing at life. Organisms on this planet from a single cell up thrive at life on this planet, so why can’t I?

I’m at a loss. I’m obviously very stupid, to be in an 8 year failure rate. At some point in time I need to find a boot strap or I should just throw in the towel. But how does one determine it’s time to throw in the towel and pull the plug on their life? What is the criteria for such a decision? The point has been reached something needs to be done. Enough of this bullshit.

I need to figure it out now!!! or just stop this bullshit now!! 223 days ago I set a deadline to figure it out or to end it all. I now have

I fear I’m not going to make it, but my bigger fear is I will not commit if I don’t

New Releases

Re-Released Again!

Here I go again, bouncing from Docsy to Congo to GeekDocs to Congo and now back to Docsy. The only decisive decision on this site is the decision to be indecisive.

Thursday, June 30, 2022

I was really liking my ~~GeekDoc~~ Congo themed site until is wasn’t anymore. The issues I had earlier with Docsy was just the learning curve. I really liked the simplicity of the old site, but decided to go a bit more flashy and I wanted rkey.online to match rkey.tech since they both represent the online and IRL character know as RWK3y; It is time for a unified look.

I have also decided to move the related blogs that are part of my documentation site back to the blog section at rkey.tech . I only had those here so I would actually have blog entries on this web site. I just does not make sense to reference things across two different web domains, when using the exact same engine for different purposes on each.

There is still much to do on the site like compressing images for speed and fixing blog entries to correct broken links to sites, images, etc….

Ironically this theme is very Google© centric and I want to de-Google©-fy it some bit for privacy and to remove the theme introduced adds and tracking while building the functionality locally.

It is a slow process that is partly due to the fact that I should be studying for certs to get my unemployed ass working in IT again. But I also have a strong desire to fix my hosting/site mess.

I’ve decided to go ahead and post the site even though it’s crude and not even close to being finished or publishable or presentable. But it’s just a place for me to post my thoughts, so the fact that it looks like scratch paper notes taken on a dirty napkin seems fairly appropriate actually.

The old site was never finished either actually was barely started, so there is that as well.